Have you chosen what programming language you are going to use?
Let us know and we can go from there.
Actually i'm a little bit confused

... at first sight I thought it would be nice to learn ASM... but my actual skill are close to "00"

so I decided to put aside the old Holy Grail of the OldSch00l-DemoCoder programming black

art.
In the beginning i tried to learn some "C" basics... but i get stuck with pointers

... unfortunately RealLife(TM) business

leave relly little time to read try and understand. Maybe I just haven't found the right way to tackle the problem and identify a valid study methodology that suits my

rusty'n'empty mind....
What i actually need the most is the ability to take a look at someone else code and being able to READ IT having a CLUE of what I'm actually READING!!!... The greatest obstacle that I found in the source-code-avalanche available out there was that there are too many examples in a mess of programming languages... mostly of them hardly adaptable to modern compilers without huge modifications or various dependency-hell-related libs

...
I feel the beauty of software rendering, but I don't want just to use someone else pre-build library... for the same reason I don't want to mess with DirectX or OpenGL (well, maybe not at the moment...).
"FreeBASIC with TinyPTC-EXT" seems quite interesting from a n00b point of view to start from scratch, i'm planning to start reading Freebasic manual to grasp the syntax basics, then experimenting a little...
NOTE: what I "feel" that's missing is some kind of in-depth-explanation of single effects, a sort of "missing link" between simple-print-text-to-screen to PixelShaders-DirectGPU-Programming-for-Real-Time-Rendering like this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LWx2HjvFzHw ... there are Denthor/Asphixya tutors written in Pascal (someone partially translated it to C in the early 90s) as well some good OpenGL ASM examples
http://perso.orange.fr/franck.charlet/Ogl_Asm.zip written by the mighty hitchhikr... and dozens more of course...
Am I totally wrong? Did I miss some neat resources?

last but not least: I apologize for my lame english, hope you got tha message.