Thank you to everyone who wish me happy birthday

I feeling confuse on what around me in life, it isnt easy as I thought it would be but that life for you.
The older I get, the more I code them,the more experience I become, the people of this forum expect more of me producing the good and I couldnt agree more but the pressure is on for me to produce the good.
I am sorry if I havnt been on what I could be but IF I want produce the good then I have lots to prove it.
I would like to hear some advice on what you thought on what I have said because I been feeling low for past months....Confidentwise is very important to get the best out of things what front of me including whatever I wish to show people on this forum to say that I can code do this and that.
I thought it would best for me get out of my chest to say things because at the moment....I just dont know who I am.....
I going to have break and go on hoilday in blackpool week or two week then go to the netcafe and read people advice on this forum to take where I want go from there.